Friday, January 25, 2008

Farewell Fisher

Today I had to say goodbye to my best cat, Fisher.

We had noticed over the past month that she was losing weight, and this week we noticed that she was walking quite stiffly. So, today Jon took Fisher to the vet to see what was the matter. He called me about an hour later choked up and handed the phone to Dr. Cheever who told me that Fisher weighted all of 3.5 pounds and that she was "loaded" with cancer. She also believed that Fisher suffering. There really was not anything to be done. So, this afternoon at 4:30, we put Fisher down (the euphamisms for death are so annoying, but to say that we "killed" her is overly dramatic, yet she didn't just die. We had a hand in it, we made a choice to end her life -- it's a remarkably difficult act, at least for me, who would rather toss a bug out the back door than squash it).

Fisher was such a great cat. Not only was she simply a terrific companion, she also is part of a significant set of events in my life, formative events that set me on the path that I continue to walk today.

And, she was unique. Not only in her appearance and her manners, but in her origins. When I was 19 years old, in December of 1991, I packed up my old Buick Regal with all my possessions and headed West to San Francisco from St. Cloud, Minnesota. It was the sort of stupid, poorly thought out adventure that teenagers are known for. Within a month, I was nearly homeless, unemployed, and alone. My luck turned when I landed a job "canvassing" for abortion rights. I basically went door-to-door with the California Abortion Rights Action League, trying to get people to give me money, half of which I kept and half went forward to the League. I did that work from February until June of 1992, if my memory services. March and April were the high points. I was raking in the dough (I even canvassed a $500 check once, from a pro-choice Republican woman who was unhappy with the anti-abortion direction her party had headed). And, then, by May my luck had ended.

I remember an especially grim afternoon in the suburbs south of San Francisco. I was in a relatively new suburb, with large houses (the larger the house, the less likely to get a contribution), and SUVs in the driveways. I had wandered around for about 2 hours without getting any contributions or even any remotely friendly interactions. I was disheartened, and thinking seriously that my time as a canvasser was drawing to a close, when I came to my next house on the street. I noted as I walked up to it that it was more modest, and a Volvo was parked in the driveway. A Volvo was generally a good sign. I noted the pro-environment bumper sticker. I knew I would get something from this house.

So, with some renewed enthusiasm, I knocked on the door. A middle aged woman with long, salt and pepper hair opened the door. I opened with my pitch: "Hi, my name is Jenny and I'm with the California Abortion Rights Action League. Are you pro-choice?"

She replied "Yes, I always give to you guys. Come in."

It was protocol to not enter homes, but I broke it when the scene was right, and this scene was right.

The woman ushered me to the back porch and asked if I wanted anything to drink. I declined, but she brought me water anyway as I sat down. I remember she and I talking about the upcoming presidential election and George Bush and Bill Clinton's politics. I also vividly recall the white fur ball of a kitten that moved along the picture window before which the porch sat.

I commented to the woman how cute her kitten was. She explained that her kids had found the kitten and two siblings in a ravine, and had rescued them. One had died, the other two had lived, and now she was trying to find a home for the white one (the other one had already been spoken for), because her cat was unhappy with the kittens around. I made appreciative noises, and she paused, looked at me, and asked if I wanted the little white fur ball?

I said "yes" without thinking.

So, she proceeded to pack up this little white kitten into a wicker picnic basket. In another bag, she gave me kitty litter, and the formula she was still hand feeding the kitten. She was only 8 weeks old.

I didn't canvas another house, but instead went back to the van and hung out until it was time to pick up the rest of the canvassers and head back to base. Back at base, we customarily each wrote down how much we had made that day. Next to my name, I wrote:
$50 + 1 kitten

She was by far the best contribution I received.

Her appearance was always striking, at least to me. She had big blue eyes that were mottled, like they were somehow slightly damaged. She had some fire-tipped Himalayan in her, and some other breed or breeds. She was slight. At her heaviest she was no more than 7 pounds. And she had terrific long hair. At play, she would fluff out and pounce around the house, like Peppie Le-Pew from Saturday morning cartoons. But, she was terrible at cleaning herself. If it hadn't been for Shadow, Fisher would have been a seriously ratty cat, because Shadow, whom we got a year later, kept Fisher clean.

And speaking of Shadow, those two were such buddies. Shadow nursed from Fisher when we first brought Shadow home. Now, mind you, Fisher didn't have any milk to offer, but Shadow nursed anyway. So did Hailie, whom we got a few months before Shadow. Fisher was the nurturer and ruler of our cat roost. She could put the smack down on Hailie, who was almost twice her size, without a hesitation.

Fisher is at least some of the reason why Jon and I are together, or at least that's what we say now. In October of 1992, I decided to move back to Minnesota. I was unemployed, broke, and had no apparent future in California. I'd applied to UC:Berkeley, but had been rejected. At the same time, I had been accepted at the U of M. It was time for my San Francisco adventure to be done.

I met Jon in late January, and over the subsequent months we became very good friends. In May, we progressed to something more. But, Jon was scary (Not axe murderer scary - to be clear). He had asked me to marry him, and I had declined. I knew that if I let myself fall in love with him, we would marry, and I was not ready for such a dramatic event. Jon was patient, and incredibly supportive.

When it was time for me to fly home, he helped me pack, helped pay for my airfare (did I mention how broke I was?), and drove me to the airport. I had given Fisher a sedative to help her cope with the flight, because she tended to freak out in a cage. When we arrived at the airport, Fisher was acting very strange -- like she was having a bad trip. She was tumbling around in her cage, and making dramatic noises. When I had checked in, and the baggage handlers came to get Fisher, they saw my anxious face and told me not to worry. An hour or so later, I boarded my flight after a teary-eyed goodbye to Jon. The plane took off, and I gently wept in my seat. Soon after, a flight attendant came by and asked me if I was Jenny Stromer. I told her I was, and she handed me a slip of paper "from the captain." It was a note telling me that Fisher had not been placed on the flight, because she was acting too erratic. They needed a contact number for someone to pick her up and take her to a vet. I gave them Jon's number. I heard nothing the rest of that anxious flight.

As soon as I landed, I called Jon to learn of Fisher's state. Jon laughed and told me that she was fine, that she was sitting on his chest as we spoke. Apparently, when he arrived at the terminal to pick her up, the baggage handlers were playing with her; she was fine. He put Fisher a flight the next day, and she and I stayed at my mom's until , well, until Jon and I moved in together in Minneapolis in February of 1993, and then wed in August.

I think Fisher was trying to tell me what a bad move I was making in leaving Jon behind. I just didn't get it initially.

While she lived with my Mom, she learned to fetch empty cigarette packs. She loved the crinkly sound of the cellophane wrapping. When Jon and I moved in to our first apartment together, it had a long hallway. Jon would sit at one end and I the other, and we'd toss the empty, balled up pack back and forth over her head. Fisher would do tremendous leaps and twirls in the air to get the pack.

She also loved to be on top of people. She had a terrible habit of jumping on visitors, especially men. You'd be standing in the kitchen chatting away, and all of a sudden, a cat would be flying at you. I had to apologize to more than one guest for the apparent attack.

When we got "the kittens," Tillie and Little Boy, she nurtured them as she had Hailie and Shadow. Tillie and Fisher bonded after Shadow died. Tillie and Fish would curl up in a cat bed on the rocking chair. "Curl up" isn't quite right. Tillie would sleep on Fisher -- even though Tillie weighed twice as much.

I'm a side sleeper, and nearly every day of her life she slept on my hip. We got so used to each other that when I would roll over, she knew how to roll with me such that she'd end up back on top.

And, she used to clean me, especially in the early morning. She would sneak up, sit on the pillow, or on my head, and run her tongue through my hair. Sometimes it was cute and funny, but most of the time it was seriously annoying.

She loved pizza, pasta sauce, and ice cream. She went crazy for Cheddar Bunnies.

I would blow on her face, and she would lick the air.

I loved the smell of her.

I write down these memories in tribute to her. As I get older, I am realizing how fragile memories are. In time, they decay. So, I want to, need to, codify these memories in printed words, so that I will remember and others will know how essential a cat can be to human life. I love all my beasts. I especially loved her.


Kate said...

Fisher -- petite stature, commanding personality.

The first time that Jeff and I took care of Fisher, she had an eye infection. My, oh my, Fisher was strong and resourceful. She was probably somewhere between 5-6 lbs. She was affectionate and smart. We used her affectionate side to lure her to us, tried to get a good hold on her, and then give her the medication. When she realized the medicine was coming, she could get out of any situation (even with two adults and a towel after her!).

She was so funny. This one time, we decided to stay a little while. Made sure that everyone got petted. Although Shadow was a bit skittish, she could be coaxed out with the wire toy, but that required some patience (just sitting and waiting until she got comfortable). We helped ourselves to some Cheese Nips in the kitchen. Put a handful in a little bag and sat on the couch. Well, Fisher wanted those Cheese Nips badly. I tried to hide them from her under my sweat shirt. She spent 15 minutes on my lap pawing at the Cheese Nips under my shirt and loving my stomach (or at least the baggie near my stomach). She was incredibly cute. I think that solidified my desire to get cats (I had never had one before).

Fisher certainly lived a long and full life.

Thinking of you all.
== Kate

Jenny Stromer-Galley said...


Thank you for that remembrance! That crazy cat loved any cheese-flavored cracker.

You reminded me of her desire to "munge." She would stand on my stomach and knead my tummy, purring her heart out. She hadn't done that in the last little while. I think arthritis made it hard for her to do it.

Anonymous said...

By the time I met Fisher, she was beginning to decline. I had come to work as a temporary nanny with Isabelle, and of course had to meet all the cats, dogs and fish. Fisher was sleeping a great deal, and Jenny told me they had to watch to make sure she didn't curl up to sleep behind the woodstove and end up cooked!

Shortly after I began working, Jenny decided Fisher definitely needed cleaning up to get rid of the dreadlocks she acquired without Shadow to groom her. And Jenny missed with the scissors (Fisher was not a willing participant to this haircut) and ended up cutting Fisher instead. Of course, poor Jenny was hysterical but Fisher was fine after a short trip to the vet.

She was so delicate...(especially compared to the size of the other cats) and so sweet-tempered.

Animals fill our lives with so much joy and love, and it is dreadfully hard to say goodbye, even when we know it's for the best.

Love to you, Jenny & Jon, in this difficult transition. And love to you, Fisher, for the years you shared with my friends.

Tiffany said...

I am so sorry to hear that Fisher is gone now too, Jen. I remember her most fondly from our days at Lake Place in Eden Prairie and what a pale ball of fur she often was, whenever she fluffed herself up, which was often while playing with Hailie and Shadow! She loved you dearly, for she was strongly attached to you, from the beginning and throughout all those years with you both. I enjoyed reading your memorial for her, with your words honoring her memory. I hope you and Jon find peace in your memories of her, as you grieve her loss.


kathreftis said...

I am so sorry to hear that Fisher is gone. I remember the times I dog/cat sat, she would always come by to make sure that I was being nice to all the creatures in the house. Once she did, she would occasionally come to me to say hello...what a sweet kitty. Thinking of all the Stromer-Galley family.

Joshie Juice said...

Wow. What an effing story (as I wipe sore cheeks from the tears).


Kristin said...

I'm sorry to hear Fisher is gone.
I remember when you and Jon used to ball up the cigarette packs, in the Minneapolis apartment, and Fisher would jump into the air to get them. She was a very special and beautiful cat.

Sending Peaceful thoughts.

TRH said...

What a beautiful tribute.
Requiescat in pace, Fisher.

Scott said...

It's truly amazing the impact pets can (and do) have in our lives. This reminded me very much of my cat Al who died (in my arms actually) in the fall of 2005. Although I've never really been a "cat" or "dog" person per se, it was probably one of the saddest days of my life, and there have been some sad days in my life! I recently "rescued" a cat from the local shelter, a black kitten I named Norm, and I swear, he has many many traits of my little friend Al. I truly think he is Al reincarnated. Thanks for the very touching story.
-Scott Lawson

Jenny Stromer-Galley said...

Hey Scott,

It's good to hear from you, and thanks for your kind words.

I'm glad you've rescued Norm. He's in good hands.

Take care,

Anna M said...

Wow, what an amazing cat -- and such gorgeous photos!! What a life she's helped you live/you helped her live :-). I'm glad that she lived long enough to meet Isabel. Gosh, you must miss her soooo much.